it's like we're living in a loop: the same lies, and the same lies we tell ourselves in an attempt to make sense of things and to forgive. over and over again.

it is also the same promises which are broken... why do we even make promises in the first place when we know they are the same ones which hurt us later? those carelessly uttered promises couldn't possibly have counted for much. your eyes have given you away, and so have your spineless will and lousy track record.

im not sure if we're going to continue with this shit indefinitely but sometimes i feel any other outcome might be worse.

and after everything's said and done, i still don't hate you. i never could and i never will.