i was blissfully chatting online last night when the screen turned blue. lots of terminology which i didnt understand popped up. the only word i remembered seeing was 'kernal'... yeah. and then this frightening line appeared at the bottom 

'dumping of physical memory'. 

that surely isnt something good yeah?! i tried restarting my laptop but it wouldnt respond. then an even scarier line appeared

'dumping of physical memory complete'

WTF??! all i did was chat online! it wasnt a virus, im pretty sure. ive a fierce anti-virus program going full-force, and i wasnt downloading any programs anyway.

attempts at restarting the lappie produced one curt message immediately after the fujitsu welcome page

'Operating System not detected'

my windows flew out the window (sorry, couldnt resist it) while i was chatting??

i tried using the Recovery CD provided by Fujitsu for dire emergencies like these. it's supposed to contain a backup copy of Windows XP and install it in. promising whirring sounds and more computer terminology onscreen later,

'hard disk cannot be found'  

and so it is unable to install my OS in the first place. so, great. apparently while i was chatting online, my hard disk disappeared too.

looks like ill have to replace a hard disk ASAP as school reopens on monday for me. impeccable timing i must say.

getting a new hard disk means that, other than the huge cash outlay, ill lose all data on my laptop. well, technically i've already lost them so there's no point crying over spilt milk ya? (it's easy to say this cos i'd saved the really important stuff earlier in the year already. they actually only consist of about 50 photos.) the lost music files can be re-downloaded. the lost pictures can be retrieved from friends. photos i'd taken with my own camera are thankfully still in the memory card. and there's no work lost cos there's no work yet cos school has not started as of now. hmm. probably the only thing i would wanna save if i had the chance to is some word documents i'd cut and pasted from my past blogs. i like to chronicle my life in my diaries and lately ive found them another use too. as evidence. don't ask.

i couldnt sleep until 4am. and fitfully too. i had this throbbing headache and i rarely get headaches. dont think it's stress caused by the laptop crash though, cos i was strangely unaffected when it happened last night. i think even now im not as vexed as i would normally have been, or as i was when sth similar happened in the past.

and i had a REALLY weird dream last night. nothing scary, well, not in the gory way anyway. involved some girls i dont know, a girl i know, her grandparents (whom i dont know, and whom i dont even know if are alive), glitter, swimming pools, me shitting (wtf?!), oh, me shitting in front of ppl (i can hear you go "WTF?!" now) and me watching a movie about coal miners alone. 

i kinda envy my laptop now. i wish i could say this too,

"dumping of physical memory COMPLETE"